Hi express board cebu! I want to share my story. So guy ko, I rarely share stories that are long but I made time to make this. I was inlove with this girl since we were kids. I witnessed her growing up and became a beautiful and strong lady. I'm not that good-looking, emo ko and very shy guy. I never thought I would have the guts to court her because we are really close friends. I was happy when she said yes. She was still highschool at that time. But the day that she said yes was also the day her flight back in Cebu. So LDR mi ato for 2 months. But when she found out that me and my family are permanently staying in Australia, she broke up with me. I tried reaching out for her on the day of our flight but she didn't responded to my texts. It was the saddest day of my life.
When I was in Australia in 2012, I met this girl. She's pretty, funny and sexy but she's uncomparable to my ex girlfriend. This girl became my girlfriend for weeks but it ended too soon. Then we started chatting again with my ex. Nangamusta ko niya and we had a long conversation. She asked me if pwede pa ba mi magbalik. Kinsa man mo dili niya? Nga she's the girl of my dreams. Kami na ulit ng ex ko. So I decided to flew back here in the Philippines. But still LDR gihapon mi sa pinas pero okay lang kay 5 hours ra byahi padong dre. I was excited for her to come back in Christmas. I doubt that she likes someone else in Cebu, but I still did my best to stay loyal. But then again, she broke up with me for the second time. And this time it was so painful like gitusok og knife akong heart. I cried, got drunk and was broke. When I heard that someone liked me in school, I decided to court her. Maybe I courted her to fill this pain my ex caused me. She said yes automatically. So it was Christmas, I heard that she came back already. Nanugo ko sa akong friends to call her for me because I want to see her. I was mad of what she did but when I saw her, all my feelings came back. But I already got a girlfriend that time and I didn't told her. I let her stay in the house with her friends and we had foodtrip. We talked for hours. I know she's not ready to get in a serious relationship. I kissed her accidentally cause I couldn't helped it. I still loved her that much. So we see each other everyday that Christmas Break and just talked like the way it used before. But I still can't helped it hugging her, kissing her and holding her hands everytime we jam with friends. I want her to be back in my life but it would be unfair to my girlfriend. I was afraid she'll make the same mistake again and again. So I let it be. I never stopped communicating with her even if she ignores me a lot until now. I was cheating with my girlfriend that time because I can't get over my ex jod.
I was about to break up with my girlfriend but she said na magpakamatay sya if buwagan nako sya, wala lang sad ko. When I stalked my ex the next year she already got a boyfriend. So I let be. Fast forward ta. When they broke up, she chatted me na ingani og ingana ang nahitabo pero kami gihapon sa akong girlfriend anang panahona. My gf kay duda na kaayo nga I'm chatting with my ex. I think she's insecure of my ex. She even ask to our close friend which is friend pod sa iya if who's my ex in my life. We always had sex with my girlfriend because that's my needs. Let's put it this way, I need my current girlfriend but I want my ex. But the problem is if ever we'll get back together kay LDR jod mi tskkk frown emoticon Lisod raba na jod. Fast forward again... Basta mu uli ako ex kay magjam jd mi nila, inom2 and storya og bsag unsa. Pero now that I'm married and have a kid, dili nami makajam nila if mu uli ako ex. I was married because I got my girlfriend pregnant. I regret everything at first. But when I saw the baby came out during the labor, I never felt so happy. Even though I'm a married guy now, I still think of my ex. I always chat her if kamusta na iyang life. Honestly she's the only I want to be with for the rest of my life but because of the mistake I did hindi natuloy yung forever. It was never our destiny to be together. But every now and then I communicate with her pero pinatago, she always tell me to be a good father to the child and love the child whole-heartedly. To my ex, even if we'll just remain friends I will always be here for you no matter what. I still love you but in a different way na. Thank you for the memories.
